the battle

The silence, I can feel it

Stalking me

Its breath warm at the nape of my neck

Touch sweet like a flower’s nectar

Gentle like a summer breeze

The peace I seek within, eludes me

Retracts every time I reach out my with

The depths of my mind, the sulci of my brain

In awe, to touch its beauty and

Revel in the majesty of its tranquility

Silence laughs at my expense

I use my hands to muffle the sobs

Of pain from my heart

The screams, the torment

That possesses my brain

MAKE IT STOP!

MAKE IT STOP!

The tears they flow like rain

Past nose and cheeks to rest on my chin

Before hitting my chest with a thud

The voices drag my sanity into the their hell

“You’re not worthy.” says one

“Not good enough.” says the other

You should just give it up.” retorts the third.

I cover my ears to drown them out

Plaster my face with a smile

Shed tears alone to hide the pain

Silence eludes me once again

I give in to the voices

For now

Just for now

For, tomorrow

Is another day

Where one who is so adored by many

Shall one day face her demons again

Feelings she holds within

Rejection, Unworthiness, Unwanted

Unloved, Unprotected, Misunderstood

Triumph is just around the corner

She just has to find a way

To capture the silence within


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